woohoo.. it has been ages ..tight up with school work.. has been n will always be.. almost suffer yet another session of breaking down.. well did a few times this term in school.. had trouble keeping up with all the work load.. talking about managing time.. i'm losing it.. when i lose it, hope just slips away too.. n when there's not much i can turn to.. i end up crying to sleep.. it makes me tired.. easier to fall asleep then.. not that it helps the next day cause i end up being tired also.. but sometimes i jux cant fall asleep.. my mind cant shut down.. then there'll be the days where i'm exhausted.. also dunno why.. it's unlike me to sleep through the night without realising that it's raining.. but it has happened more often.. sometimes i thought of escaping.. know it doesnt help in anyway but it gives comfort somehow.. as said during lifespan lesson.. sleeping in a position like a baby is really comfortable.. haha.. brings comfort..
guess i'm losing it soon.. my bro is like top 5% in his school for the first semester.. got 10 bucks from my dad.. heh.. i'm happy for him.. proud for him also cause this is like the first time he did well academically.. n his school mentioned his achievement or something.. hee.. great job didi.. keep up the good work.. but i didnt do well.. n my mom knows it.. now every one at home knows it.. heh.. not that i'm proud of wad i did.. but.. just losing that touch to score.. since everyone is doing so well.. there's someone who needs to score badly so that they would seem to do well isnt it..
melie
10:17 pm
