my shoulder got slam by the car boot yesterdae when my dad tried to close it after the family took all the groceries out.. basically the boot just bounce back up from my shoulders after it hit my shoulders.. that's how much force my dad used.. i think i heard a thump when it hit my shoulders.. i almost lost grip of the plastic bags i was holding.. tears actually welled up in my eyes.. hope i didnt fracture my shoulder.. a small part seem swollen but i think it the bone.. it's red though.. painful also.. heh.. luckily it's not some finger that got caught.. if not that's probably the end of it.. heh..
melie
2:07 pm
haf been spending every wed of my hols in a chemotherapy clinic.. accompany my aunt there.. give her the family support that everyone had been showing.. we take turns accompanying her there whenever we can take time off fr work.. since it's my hols.. so i decided to let the others get on wif their jobs n let me do the job.. guess it's a pretty enriching experience.. seeing the things my aunt goes thru allow me to understand it all better.. it is not as simple as i tot it was.. it's actually pretty tiring to wait to see the doc and go thru 2 hrs of chemotherapy when u just sit there n dun do really much.. only 2 tvs to be shared by the number of pts there at any one time.. but the time spent wif my aunt allowed me to talk to her and learnt abt the experiences she had when she volunteered.. which got me interested.. maybe i can find myself n peace in reading the books written by a nun that my aunt lent me.. the warmth from the nurses and staff at the clinic really got me thinking of wad kind of therapist i wanna be next time.. i felt at ease when i was there even if that was my first trip there.. everyone seemed to know everyone.. the nurses were very nice.. even up to the lady who did the cleaning was very kind to the patients.. service there was definitely sumthing i really admire..
melie
1:11 pm
what to do if u feel everything is breaking apart..what to do if u cant decide who to talk to..what to do if u started crying for a reason someone else thinks it's stupid..what to do when u stop trying n those around u stop trying also..how should u feel when u dun seem to understand everything that is happening..is a sign to show u that it's time to stop to think if u shld continue..how to salvage a relationship when u dun even noe what cause it to go wrong..how to stop urself from jumping out of that window..how to stop urself from crying more than u ever did in years..just when everything seem to be going on better.. everything else just crumble down..trying to put on a smile doesnt work anymore cause tears well up instead..
melie
12:58 pm
woohoo.. the holidays are here.. finally.. year 1 has ended.. cant believe i'll be year 2 in apr.. time flies.. results for my exam will be out in mar.. wonder if i'll get any As... hmmm..
oh well.. many stuff has happened just 1 week into my hols.. suppose to have celebrated my grandpa's 90th bdae on sun.. but he was warded into the hospital with high fever.. and until now the cause of it is not known.. but we manage to cut his bdae cake in his hospital room.. heh.. i showed him the video i made for him.. i'm so proud of it.. hee.. everytime i watch it the songs always almost make me cry.. haha.. it really brought back memories for my grandpa.. he couldnt stop recalling all the stuff he went thru.. hee.. glad he's happy.. oh well.. now he says he can go home from the hospital.. haha.. oh well. he had problems hearing so when my aunt had to wear a mask at the hospital, he couldnt lip read.. so he had no idea on what we are saying.. haha.. oh well.. lucky we didnt haf to when we visited him..
melie
6:09 pm
