it has been ages since i blog.. had this whole new idea of start blogging regularly.. but it didnt actually worked.. ha.. i miss dancing.. i miss going to sunday practices and seeing cikgu.. i really enjoy sweating and exercises.. sweating it all out helped me to control my temper more.. i had a place to use the excessive energy.. but now.. it's trapped inside n sometimes it's the people around me (particularly one person) who will suffer .. i'm really sorry that it always turn out this way but sometimes i lose control.. shouting yelling thoughts of jumping out of the window.. scares me.. scares others too.. but i dunno why i wanna end it all this way.. i noe it's not right.. but what is.. who am i talking to anyway..
school is coming to a term break soon.. heh.. a break i badly need.. my dreams of going overseas might be dash sonner than i thought.. my dad's on mc.. my mom's hands are weak.. heh.. learning to cook has been much more interesting than i expected.. heh.. it's the only way to help out at home.. besides mopping or vacumming the house or folding clothes.. i'm like being trained.. ha.. take over the hsehold chores.. it's not easy la.. rmb last year where my bro, dad n i had to share the hsehold chores cox my mom on mc n couldnt do much stuff... heh.. but it was quite fun to haf my mom at home when i reach home.. it was something i had always wanted to experience when i was young.. my mom had always been working then i would admire my frenz who get to go home and see their mom after sch and they get to go home to lunch cooked by their mom.. i had always treasured the times my mom cooked.. cause nothing beats home cooked food.. now i get it every nite.. yippee..
1 year has passed faster than i had expected.. recalling the times i had.. i knew life couldnt haf been better.. but somehow.. i cried more.. is it just that i opened up more or wad.. heh.. i really hope what i wish for will come true.. i really hope.. love ya..
melie
9:42 pm
