what is wrong with me? perphaps.. only u will noe.. i've lost myself and everyone else.. really like i said at least i still have you..
wearing a mask to shield myself from crying.. to not worry the important people in my life..
melie
9:57 pm
handed in another report todae!! one down n last one to go.. ha.. the last one only 1000 words.. yippee.. think i'm going to go crazy soon.. sometimes i'm so happy.. the next moment i can be crying.. oh gosh.. oh.. now i cant rmb why i log on.. haha.. let me think.. still cant rmb.. hee..
ha.. cant wait to meet cs and wb on fri.. to pass cs his long over due bdae present.. ha.. and get from wb my christmas present.. ha.. if he rmbs that is.. oh well.. we can jux celebrate his last day at work.. ha.. mayb shld get him to treat.. hehehe.. oh.. bao xian.. when can we meet up again... hehe..
cny is just like 4 weeks away.. ha.. n i haven gotten any new clothes.. die liao.. the next phase of attachment is starting in 3 weeks time.. this time attachment for 6 weeks.. i cant wait for 23rd mar.. the last day of attachment and start of holidays.. yippee...
melie
6:39 pm
went back to see malay dance on tues.. i always feel at home no matter what.. seeing the juniors say hi.. seeing mrs tan and ms khoo n ms chen.. how they ask about sch n life and the rest of the ppl who they seldom see.. seeing the dancers practice reminded me of the days that i was one of them.. so many yrs haf passed..
mrs tan is always so nice.. got a lift from her to go to nj cox she said she was going to bedok to fetch cikgu.. she came all the way to sch to fetch me.. then saw cikgu and heard that he stopped smoking.. den saw the dancers in nj.. saw ms khoo who stayed back to get a glimpse of me.. so touched.. den she rushed for church.. talked to ms chen abit.. she asked about sch.. then saw the dancers.. so many new faces.. saw the vietnamese scholars for the first time.. saw them practise.. heard that there'll be aristal again this yr in may.. ms chen asked if i'll dance.. but dun think i got time to commit.. not sure.. aniwae syf is on 11 apr.. good luck guys.. gold with honours.. bet u all could do us proud.. hope to see u guys soon..
melie
11:35 am
todae is finally the long awaited day.. ha.. finally got to put up the stuff i prepared for the therapeutic medium booth.. hee. shiok.. been preparing for it since last yr.. the past few days had been spent helping out wif the logistics.. hee.. bixia n jiali were working so hard for it.. todae was also the day we presented out healthy relationships stuff.. hee.. thanks to josephine to set up while the rest of us were busy wif other stuff.. ;) glad that our group was quite fast in doing the stuff.. hee.. efficient.. really got to thank the year1s n year3s for helping out.. hee..
den went to do home n comm outing stuff.. super tired now cause was on crutches.. got bruises and stuff.. the rest.. dont wanna talk abt it..
melie
11:02 pm
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh.
When care is pressing you down a bit-
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a fellow turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow-
You may succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man;
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor's cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down,
How close he was to the golden crown.
Success is faliure turned inside out-
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit,-
It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.
--youthbeat, issue 10
melie
10:54 pm
heez... todae is in history the far most terrible day in my life.. i guess to anyone in my batch would agree with me too.. ha.. handed in 4 reports to sch todae.. the past few days was a mad rush to complete these assignments.. had already gotten one done the week before but the rest i spend last week trying to complete.. in addition to ot day stuff to prepare and other projs slides to do.. ha.. manage to finish the stuff at 2am yesterdae.. though it's not the best.. but i couldnt think of animore things to write.. i already exceeded the word count.. ha.. oh well.. in the end i was just taking the short cut to do everything.. not something to be proud of.. i'm jux focus at the end product.. haha.. got onto my bed at 2am to sleep.. but my mind couldnt shut down.. it took probably an hr to finally turn off.. haa.. n i woke up at 6am to do the printing of all the assignments.. hee.. my mother turned on the computer for me already when i went to her room to do the printing.. hee..
went to sch wif hf... took a cab cox i was lazy to take the public transport n i needed that social support after being so drained from doing all the work.. i realise in the morning while waiting to meet hf i could actually take the bus.. but i was jux too lazy.. haha
almost half the cohort was late in handing up their work.. oh well.. i jux floated thruout the day.. ha.. i was still awake for half the day.. but after 3pm i was totally gone.. ha.. no matter how big i tried to open my eyes.. my vision was still blur.. ha.. everyone was going crazy soon.. some didnt sleep the nite before.. so everyone was cranky n crack silly jokes.. ha.. oh well.. having a laugh at anithing wasnt so bad..
now i need a massage for a aching shoulder and neck.. turing my neck hurts.. wad did i do?!?.. oh.. i better write my speech for my ottp presentation.. ha..
melie
10:11 pm
oh.. it's friday already.. ha.. was reading a previous post n realise i got typo.. ha.. wad's new.. instead of saying "now at home alone", i typed "not at home alone".. haha.. oh well..
friday means 3 more days oh holidays?? dont really think so leh.. i still got assignment 1a, ottp leaflet n home n comm report to do.. argh.. i halfway done for leaflet n assignment 1a.. i'm so dead for home n comm.. haven even started .. i think all of us can die liao.. burn wadever oil we have these few days.. haha.. oh well.. some of us having our case presentation in school now.. i had mine yesterdae.. almost screw it up cause halfway thru presentation, i realise i forgot to edit some of the slides.. ha.. was reading fast.. speech was so screwed... ha.. oh god.. so many projs too.. next wk i got 3 proj presentation n 4 reports to hand it.. i'm so dead or wad... haha.. i have totally isolated myself from all my responsibilties.. i suddenly became so selfish.. not sure how to answer for all those.. threw a friend out there to die.. but i so will die first if i never complete my work before going to a camp.. sometimes it's not that i dun wanna go.. but i dunno how to account to my mom.. afterall she expects the best out of me.. my bro have been doing well.. i have to also.. but how to explain to others.. oh well.. just be that bad person ba... fallin sicker anyway..
it's 4 months away.. but i have tot of it since like last yr.. i noe i'm so bad at planning.. but.. shall not explain the but.. i haf gotten a fren to help out wif it.. hee.. now it nds a theme.. guest list.. who?..
cant wait to meet bx ltr.. finally.. got so much things to tell her.. but not sure until that time, i'll still wanna say out.. mayb her presence will calm my soul down.. afterall.. she's one of the few that stuck wif me during this time.. though we dun meet often, talk often or wadsoever.. i always treasured knowing her.. she's always there.. take care k..
melie
11:03 am
it's a rainy day.. not at home alone.. doing projs.. event stuff for ot day.. n suppose to get started on my assignments.. but i'm far from done.. argh.. met up with a few proj mates yesterdae.. ha.. been so long since i saw some of them.. ha.. chatted with some of them of their attachment experience.. oh well.. i haf to say alot depends on luck.. ha.. wanna go out but the rain dampen my spirit.. oh well.. no one to go out with now also.. better focus..
melie
3:12 pm
first thing first..
WAN TING HAPPIE 21ST BIRTHDAY!!! haha.. aniwae.. todae is the end of attachment.. yippee.. but never went out to celebrate.. boohoo... oh well i was let off 10 mins early.. ha.. but i always go early haha.. oh well.. hope everybody enjoyed their attachment experience.. now is rushing reports time.. sian.. oh well.. wanted to update my blog on many things.. haha..let's start with
03s10 class chalet on 14/12-16/12..
who went: wenbin, fran, abi, kangyu, jin yin, ser hwee, jian xiang, kenny, yili, tess, peishan, yemin, huimin, mr lim..
i only went on 15/12 nite.. cause of attachment.. went wif abi.. met her at jurong east mrt.. ha.. we went whitesands to get a curry puff to eat first cause we were really hungry.. haha.. oh well.. after that we went eating bbq food.. haha.. so funny.. the guys wanted to give wb a bdae bash.. haha.. had ice cream log cake to eat.. yupyup.. mr lim is always so thoughtful.. haha.. he bought so many drinks n bread for us to eat with the ice cream.. ha.. the last nite.. only wb, fran, abi, ky, sh, jy, n jx stayed for the nite.. the next morning i woke up at 5 plus to go for attachment.. haha.. really shag n space out during that time.. haha.. luckily didnt haf any clients to treat.. haha..
christmas had a family chalet from 22/12 to 27/12.. ha.. cause i had one day off.. i didnt had to work on 26/12.. yippee.. slack.. had bbq food for 3 days.. haha.. but i was totallu cut off from society like that.. haha.. edwin came over on christmas eve.. hee.. watched curse of the golden flower.. ha..
yec 30/12who went: jeff, jit jin, calvin, bruce, jeremy, veron, mavis, minli, william, sebastian, kinfai, huifang, kaixiong, wei han, zheng yang, liying, chung ming, some prcs.. n some more ppl i think.. didnt see them..
suppose to haf gone for paintball with the yec n scouts ppl.. but i got work for half day so couldnt make it.. ha.. while waiting for them to get to marina bay for bowling, i went shopping for presents.. ha.. jux wanted to spend some money.. haha.. oh well.. played my first bowling in years.. since i hurt my hand muscles.. interesting.. ha.. oh well.. i nd practice.. haha.. den had buffet steamboat after that.. ate lots of prawns.. ha.. totally full..
new yearstayed at home to count down.. haha.. oh well.. went out in the day.. watch movie.. shop around with edwin.. then went home for dinner.. so cool.. my 2yo cousin doesnt understand new yr yet.. haha.. when we count down n cheered.. he got excited and started counting and cheering himself.. haha..
end of attachmentsup says i'm totally relaxed todae so i seem to play better with the clients.. ha.. lots of stress management to do.. muahaha.. oh well.. did a tile thing for my sup.. gave her the top occupational therapist key chain.. ha.. n a card too.. haha.. hand made all except the key chain.. hee.. hope she likes it.. i must say i enjoy playing with kids.. but the knowledge really affected me abit.. oh well.. ha.. it's over n i'm glad i did ok..
melie
7:22 pm
