i once read a story.. a story of a person's life.. to date i still rmb.. those chapters of her life.. but in particular.. one chapter stood out.. it began something like this..
she had always found love something she could look forward to.. it was forbidden to some extent as she was young and studies had always been more impt.. she always dreamt of prince charming.. she first came into contact of that particular feeling when she chance upon her cousin's diary.. in it wrote her cousin's deepest secrets.. it wrote about the stuff forbidden in the family.. her cousin found out.. and hid it somewhere else.. but she always found it in the end.. she knew where's that locker key to open that cupboard.. somehow her cousin resented and allowed her to see it.. it was her cousin and her little secret.. sometimes they do not get to see each other.. that was their little way to update each other on what's happening.. it was the beginning of the cousins bond.. she always found that feeling so fascinating.. her cousin's frustration and the suspense to hide things kept her longing for one.. she knew she could never haf one now.. not till many years later..
she was never pretty to start off with.. dressed in pants and tshirt.. that was the only thing that ever existed in her woredrobe.. she was afterall almost a tomboy.. her short hair.. appearance wise.. she was never attractive.. she didnt haf time for relationships aniwae.. her packed schedule and strict routine.. she lived a life spread out nicely for her.. she had what she wanted.. she longed for someone to call her own.. but she knew that was out of the question..
as years passed.. she was different.. but the same.. crushes surfaced.. but never one did happen.. she was destined to be alone.. she wanted different but didnt dare.. fearing hurt was the main problem.. her frenz tried to match make her.. but that wasnt love she thought.. she was still living in her own fantasy world..
one day that all changed.. she was whisked off to another world.. she thought it was paradise.. it was an oasis.. and it disappeared before she knew it.. her world collapsed.. she didnt knew what to do.. all she could think off was only one thing.. she felt her world separating.. she could dissociate herself and think in many point of views.. that made her tired.. made her confused.. made her wish she could erased her past..
that chapter ended.. making me feel lost.. it felt like standing on thin rope.. i didnt wan the chapter to end like that.. i hate that story for that chapter.. wished i nv did read that chapter actually..
melie
9:38 pm
