it's the 101 post in my blog.. just read a blog of a close one.. den it got me thinking..
haf i been playing a role i should be well.. a granddaughter, daughter, sister, friend, girlfriend..
holding the hand of the ah ma yesterdae got me thinking of my own grandparents.. i never got to hold my grandma hands .. i almost teared at the thought of it.. i didnt get to do alot of things i wanted wif them.. now there's only ye ye left.. but how often do i see him?.. wad if it turns into another regret in my life again..
the daughter of my parents.. i dun help out in housework most of the time, didnt learn driving, never did anything special on their birthdays, .. filial piety?.. haven lived up to that role.. wad kind of daughter am i?
wad kind of sister am i to my bro? when i never realise he cried and didnt sleep well a few months last year.. didnt give him the hugs he wanted, didnt comfort him when i should have, didnt realise something was amiss.. blinded in my own world.. but he gave me the hugs, the comfort, wadever i wanted he gave me.. bad sister..
friend.. how many i left out in my life.. didnt provide the comfort they needed.. never showed concern for them.. never really been a friend i should have.. wad haf i done to say i was a fren of theirs..
..girlfriend.. ?.. wad did i do wrong? demanded too much attention? missing you when u're not beside me? calling you when i feel down? crying to you when life doesnt seem right? not smiling when i'm not happy? when your presence, voice just washes away all the fears, sadness and brings comfort and joy just to noe that u r there..
"its so much easier to give up den to give in
Yet its so much easier to depend than to be independ."
found in another person's blog
melie
1:51 pm
