e s o p h o r i a - it's all about how you perceive me.

有很多话要说可是说不出口。。。为什么？明天就要上学了，应该感到开心还是伤心呢？当其他的人都在准备考试或开始放假的时候，我就得准备要开学了。。 2 years on, it's still sad to think that when others are going to start on 3 months of holidays, i'll be starting my third year already.. i'll never get a taste of 3 months holiday.. ha.. it's like ur frenz r planning to go overseas during that period, u cant go wif them cause u got sch.. when u haf hols, they have exams.. when they haf hols, u haf sch or attachment.. somehow.. u learnt to make time.. no matter how busy u r, u just accommodate.. u just heck care whether u will be tired or not.. cause that free time to meet up is just hard to come by.. that's how it was for 2 years i suppose.. u just squeeze wadever time u haf for a person.. somehow, we'll get tired.. but there'll always be a strength in me to push me on.. i dont regret sacrificing time for a person cause in the end, that person can actually make me feel better than before.. guess many times when we say we haf no time, it's just an excuse ba..

melie
4:10 pm

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prelude: i decided to go on this trip the very last min.. just before i went on my cameron trip i suppose.. so i decided to go just like 10 days or 2 weeks before good friday.. was it a rash decision.. ha.. i can say no.. i took 2 days to think of whether i should go when my mom said i decide myself la.. well.. she said it unwillingly cause i asked her when she was watching her korean drama.. oh well.. i didnt dare go at first cox my mom didnt sound please.. but to think that i haf a long weekend coming up with no one to spend wif, i decided to go.. (probably a form of escaping from reality).. anw.. i went n got back..

day 1
sending hf to cc too.. she wanted to borrow sleeping bag n ziploc so she came over at 6.30 or earlier to do packing.. ha.. in the end she gave up on the sleeping bag n shared wif me.. haha.. reached cc just before 7am.. hee.. the bus was going to come at 7.30am to pick us up.. the first hiccup was it went to clementi cc instead of west coast cc.. ha.. wad a joke.. after getting on, it was a ride to tuas checkpt.. on a typical long weekend, one would expect a traffic jam at the checkpoints.. so we did experience one.. ha.. well.. we just played cards on the bus to waste away the time.. ha.. after going thru the msian checkpoint, we were suppose to change bus.. but cause of all the traffic, our dear bus couldnt reach the checkpt, so we waited at the canteen, before anione could finish our drink, we were told to abandon, i mean really ABANDON all the food or drinks we got to board the bus.. the tour guide was trying to explain some things.. which he kept repeating till i got abit sian diao by him already.. we took a public bus to board our bus which was somewhere outside.. ha.. stupid.. n hf was saying she wanted to try taking public bus.. ha..
den it was a ride to mt ophir.. with no stops in between.. heh.. so we just slept, talk, enjoyed the scenery.. by the time we reached the resort, it was noon time.. LUNCH TIME, means food.. all of us were famished.. ha.. well.. some called it the last proper meal before our ascend.. hee.. after that, we had some packing to do.. surrendered our valuables to keep in a safe in the resort.. den we were given our water n food ration.. it was alot n heavy.. sian.. some had to carry tent n stove.. we got rid of some of the unneccesary things fr our bags and was ready to go.. den we had to fill in some form to say how many stuff we bringing up, supposedly so that we can keep track on the litter we nd to bring back down..

den we embark on our journey.. upwards.. ha.. if only it was upwards only.. so to reach checkpoint 1.. it was a test already.. hee.. wif no prior training, it was mental work.. n to haf a partner whose bag is so much smaller than yours n his size is so much bigger.. ha.. i had to do more mental work.. though he offered to carry my bag, but i tot if i could do it myself, i would feel the satisfaction more.. so i pushed on.. well he helped me finish my 1.5L of water.. hee.. guess on the way up, without jinhsien pushing me on, i probably wanted to gif up climbing more... hee thanks.. well the guide's way of motivating us was that if we can survived the first half an hour of climb, we could climb all the way to base camp.. understatement.. well.. nothing he said from the beginning was worth believing.. heh.. the scenery was beautiful.. the waterfall n wind.. hmmm.. everyone was ever so glad to reach a checkpoint or rest stop.. ha.. den it was like photographs time.. haha.. it was fun just sitting there enjoying the breeze and scenery, quietly thinking of things.. sometimes i get lost in thoughts.. which got me home sick.. the whole time during the climb, my mind was on stepping on the right place, not fall over.. cause that's probably the end if u fall.. finally at base camp, we pitched our tents and when for a bath in the waterfall.. well the water was used for everything.. bathing, drinking, eating, washing.. sometimes it's better not to think of wad others did in the water.. u just pray nothing happens to u.. haha.. after the bath, it was time to prepare dinner.. which was cup noodles n some packet rendang.. ha.. those that u throw in hot water that kind.. hee.. one of the stove was faulty which made taion abit pissed.. ha.. just as we had just got everything in place to enjoy dinner, it started raining.. pouring to a certain extent.. well.. it always rains when our batch try to do some outdoor cooking.. so we problem solved n built a shelter wif ground sheet.. haha.. so when everyone else was inside their tent eating wad they haf, we were under the groundsheet cooking.. haha.. n the gas stove still works during the rain.. it was a funny sight to see everyone in raincoat or poncho, under the groundsheet eating.. ha.. jh brought chilli crab n tom yam flavoured cup noodles n it tastes wonderful.. hee.. marvellous.. after that, we clean up n got ready for bed cause we had to wake up at 3 or 4.. before we went to bed, jn, wk, hf n i played cards.. haha.. across the tents.. haha.. as the tent was on a slope, i think i was slipping down thruout the nite.. as a light sleeper, i could sleep much.. heh..

day2
in pitch darkness and out torch lights we hiked to the summit.. checkpoint 4 to 5 was LONG .. ha.. but it was fun hiking in the darkness.. u could only see wad's in front of u.. as jh didnt haf a torch, i had to shine on his path at times, everytime we stop we turned off the torch, n u can never see anithing in front of u.. haha.. cool.. we had to cross rivers during that darkness too.. it tested alot of teamwork.. ha.. the sun finally came on at about 7am.. by then we were already climbing with all fours.. ha.. wk was saying why he paid 200 bucks to experience wad he had in burnei.. haha.. guess the highlight of the day was the vertical climbs using ropes.. i scrape my elbow the first time up.. heh.. n cause of the condition i was in.. didnt quite bother to wash my wound yet.. after the first vertical climb, there was many ladders n vertical climb to conquer.. the last vertical rope climb was about 2 storey high.. no safety harness or wad to protect u.. u only haf your hands n legs n that rope in your hands.. as it rained the night before, the rope was wet n slippery.. after climbing so much, my hands were quite tired already.. wif only that way up for us, i had to climb it.. i was SUPER AFRAID.. if i lose grip, i would plunge down, we all joked that we'll end up in the resort.. dont even need to carry our bag down.. ha.. we all tried to make it sound easy to climb up but it wasnt.. i still rmb as i was abt to reach the top, i suddenly could feel my arms animore.. i couldnt pull animore.. with 2 more steps to go, tai on was at the top pushing me on.. but at that point, i couldnt, i resorted to squating, which scared the people at the top, so they quickly pulled me up by reaching out.. which was pretty dangerous actually.. but i really couldnt feel my hands at that point in time, as if it was not mine.. it was freaking scary..
we finally reach SUMMIT before noon.. it was super cooling.. love it.. the view was great.. we were in the clouds.. haha. well.. a little accident happened at the top, jeff hit his head against the rock as wk, jh n to fell from the tallest platform.. the 3 of them fell on him.. heh.. luckily apart from scratches, nothing much happened.. den it was descend.. same route down.. i was kinda afraid n fearful of the vertical descend.. after wad had happened, i was scare.. to went down wif me.. well, he got to the bottom faster, after dunno how long on the rope, i asked how much more i had to climb down, he told me to look.. i took a peek.. i was freaking out.. my hands were tired n shaky already.. it was wobbling.. ha.. after much descend down n more ropes, i finally got to the end of it.. while waiting for the rest, to n i talked abt the experience just now.. n he was scare too.. haha.. it was great not carrying anithing to climb a mountain u noe.. haha..
after reaching back to base camp, it was packing n cleaning up.. hee.. which we were very fast at.. haha.. but having to carry the bag pack to descend was the most dreaded thing ever.. n it was more difficult to go down than up.. my knee started aching after a while.. well.. it was kinda injured during my placement.. heh.. with unstable knees, it means unstable ankles.. so it made the descend more scary n difficult.. ha.. we made a stop at twin waterfall.. magnificant.. ha.. didnt go n enjoy the waterfall cause i was tired.. ha.. i was one of the slowest when climbing down cause i resorted to bottom shifting at some points of climbing down.. ha.. it was a funny sight.. cause everyone else is standing while to n i were sitting.. haha.. it was pretty deceiving to climb from checkpoint 1 to the starting point.. cause it was LONG.. LONG.. jh was always saying we gonna reach the end but the end never came.. hahaha.. it was a relieved when we finally reached the end point.. YEAH!!!
then we checked into our rooms at the resort n got a proper bath.. haha.. think it was the longest bath i ever had.. haha.. had dinner after that.. k.. i ate alot.. till it shocked the whole table.. ha.. it was a never ending story after that.. haha..
after dinner many of them went to bed.. but the youngsters went on to party thru the nite.. we gathered in our rooms n played games.. haha.. we only went to bed at 12 i think haha.. we were died tired by then.. somehow i was quite awake.. it took me some time to fall asleep..

day3
last day.. had buffet breakfast.. not everyone woke up for breakfast.. haha.. den went exploring abit.. haha. bought some stuff.. den just rotted n we played cards again to waste the time we had till it was lunch time.. hee.. we finally checked out after lunch n boarded the bus back.. it was sad to leave the cool climate.. had a few stops at the town to try the chendol n other food stuff.. some not bad.. ha.. then it was a ride back to johor for a seafood dinner.. besides sleeping, we played cards again.. haha.. well, seafood dinner didnt really had much seafood except the fish n prawns.. hmmm.. cheated again?.. haha.. got to woodlands checkpoint.. it was jammed pack.. so many people.. haha.. it was more chaotic than tuas checkpoint.. hmm.. i DIDNT GET TO EAT DUNKIN DONUTS AGAIN.. sian been to msia the whole week but i didnt get to eat it one bit.. tsk.. haiz.. finally back home.. my bro came to pick me n hf up.. home sweet home..

melie
11:17 am

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just as much i admire the courage and team-work you guys have... melissa, dont be a freaking idiot and go to such places when you are not feeling too good! STOP THOSE STUNTS!!! I am sure you wont want such free publicity.

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writeright : 3:29 pm

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day 1
we were leaving at nite.. so gave hf a lift to golden mile complex that nite.. my bro drove there.. parked at some hdb flats n walked to the hawker centre for dinner.. the void decks were littered with foreign workers, smelled like urine and alcohol and smoke.. it was like walking thru some hideous part of the city.. it was scary to haf to walk alone.. the tot of hf n i walking alone to the complex after dinner kinda scared me a little.. oh well.. had dinner.. but we were early so took a stroll to the complex.. after entering the doors, it was like 'welcome to thailand'.. smoke filled the air-conditioned room.. well.. the stalls selling food were quite interesting.. erm.. frog satay anione?.. the typical herbs filled the plates of anione there.. it was pretty enriching to walk thru the place.. not alone i suppose.. aniwae.. after that.. it was still early so my parents n bro dropped us off at opp golden mile while hf n i ventured the place to rot time away.. i went into 7-11 and bought tons of sweets, anticipating the fact that i'll get a sore throat already.. haha.. both of us were like 2 wierd ppl walking arnd wif backpacks.. we ventured into the cc to go toilet.. ha.. den we decided to walk to concourse.. on the way there, we met a scout friend.. ha.. he tot we were going backpacking.. ha.. oh well.. aniwae.. we couldnt turn back to walk so we just cross the road and walk to golden mile to see if the others were there already.. we checked in at 9.30pm.. only to find out that we could only board the bus at 10 plus.. so we sat outside n just stone.. ha.. finally boarded the bus, the seats were huge.. ha.. luxurious.. so that was it.. bye bye singapore.. off we went towards tuas checkpoint.. estimated time of arrival in cameron highlands was 6 am.. long long time.. the bus was speeding.. all the way.. rina said it was travelling at 130km/hr.. how true? but it was fast.. at the bends, it feels as if the bus gonna tilt man.. at least we got to cameron in one piece.. the driver even asked us to sleep when we were going up cameron.. dun see the surrounding better.. minus the stimulation to get giddy.. haha..

day 2
reached cameron at 6 plus.. it was COLD.. n our auntie hf wore bermudas.. ha.. she could only described it as shiok.. haha.. had breakfast at the recommended place... had purri.. hot teh terik.. it was great to haf a hot drink in that weather.. ha.. 14 degree celsius.. cool.... den it was off finding our accommodation.. ha.. to our dismay.. it was quite a walk in from town n there were very little street lamps.. thinking of our safety for the nite.. we decided to look for another place.. after much consideration, we settled for JURINA.. we occupied one level of the bungalow.. n we were the only occupants.. it was on top of a small slope some more.. haha.. after settling down, we lied on our beds.. den it was time to decide wad tours we wanna signed up for.. we signed up for 2 tours.. one half day.. the other full day.. as the half day farm tours only happened in the afternoon, we decided to venture the town area.. n find makan sources.. we managed to comb the town within like half an hour.. haha.. that's how small.. we attempted to call home through pay phone.. didnt quite work.. haha.. auto-roam still work better.. oh the way back we decided to stop at another recommended place for lunch.. it was filled with houseflies.. it was battle to eat n fight the flies at the same time.. n the best thing was the waitress n us got communication probs.. so our orders didnt come out the way we wanted.. so we planned not to go back there again.. den we went back to await for our van to pick us up for the tour.. we were visiting strawberry farms, rose farms, butterfly farms, honey bee farm, cant rmb wad else.. aniwae the only thing that caught our eyes was the fact that the other town had SECRET RECIPE!!! haha.. we got back to our "home" at 6 plus.. den it was time to decide dinner place.. hee.. it was "T cafe".. the place is super cool.. look like some old english cafe.. most of us had some kind of boh tea.. as my throat was starting to kill me, i tot drink camomile tea would help in some way.. haha.. it did to a certain extent.. haha.. the food was not bad.. nice.. dessert was nice too.. apple pie with ice cream.. hmmm... on the way back, we bought mineral water to supplement our supply.. but i still had plenty of water from spore.. haha.. shucks.. i'm not drinking enough.. oh well.. after dinner, it was bath time.. ha.. as we had 4 ppl in my room, we to0k turns to bathe.. well wad else can we do rite.. ha.. when it was my turn, it was warm water at first.. i didnt even had to turn on the cold water.. as time passed, it become cool water.. i knew something was wrong so i started increasing my speed to bathe as i breaking out into a shiver.. ha.. n i was the only one who experienced cold water while bathing la.. can die.. at least i knew how to turn off the water.. ha.. jiali forgot how.. haha.. after that as marni n xj was tired, they went off to bed early.. the rest of us gathered in jm, jl, ys' room to talk.. we talked about anithing that came to mind.. most of it was clinical experience.. ups and downs.. ha.. we laughed.. oh ya.. our main door opens out, n the only lock is the push the button in the door knob that kind.. n we didnt even haf the main door key.. tell me about safety.. we finally went to bed at 1 i think.. ha..

day 3
rina woke up trying to convince me that there was something under our bed making some noise the whole nite.. i tried telling her it's from outside n she didnt haf to worry cause i was the one next to the window.. we had a laugh at wad happened last nite.. ha.. we were trying to contain our laughter as we went to bed as there were already 2 person sleeping in our room.. n rina's first reaction to anithing i slapping the nearest person.. at least i didnt wake up wif half the body swollen.. hahaha... ok.. hafta admit.. everybody lacked sleep so we were high most of the time.. haha.. breakfast was at a nearby shop.. prata.. but funnily, here the prata they cut into pieces one.. wonder y.. hmm.. aniwae.. teh terik was the wake up call for all.. hee.. n it only cost RM 3.30 for breakfast.. haha.. n i'm eating alot.. die... getting fatter sia.. todae we haf a full day tour.. n the boss of the agency was our guide for the day.. hee.. we were going to the tea plantation, tallest point, mossy forest, orang asli, hot spring, water fall, flower plantation.. everything was like cool cool cool.. trekking in the mossy forest was like preparation for ophir.. haha.. everywhere was muddy muddy muddy.. hee.. but the view from the highest pt was superb.. the orang asli was quite modernised except that they still do backwoodsman cooking.. how can they not burn their house down?? the blow pipe thingy was great.. hf seemed as though she has returned home.. haha. she was like a little kid asking lots of questions.. haha.. the hot spring.. stinks.. the smell of eggs filled the air n the hot spring is useless.. ha.. by the time we reached back to "home", it was 6 plus.. we were like so lazy that we didnt moved for dinner till 7 plus.. ha. we had steamboat dinner at the housefly restaurant.. ha.. cause that was the only halal steamboat we could find.. IT IS SHIOK TO EAT STEAMBOAT IN A COLD WEATHER.. n we chose to sit upstairs where there was no houseflies.. haha.. think the whole restaurant was quite screwed up though, they prepared all the food n place them infront of us but not the pot of soup, so we spent 10 mins staring at all the food.. how stupid yea.. n we had 1 waiter to ourselves.. hahaha.. cause only us sat on the second level.. haha.. it was fun having steamboat.. after dinner, we went back n played games.. as it was the last nite, we didnt wan to slp so early.. at 2am, we were still laughing so loud that the boss appeared.. i remembered locking the front door after we got back but somehow the boss managed to come in.. !@#$ and he didnt even knocked before coming in.. he came in and stand at the corner without making any noise la.. freaking scary la.. the first words he said were ' do u noe wad time is it, u all r disturbing me n the neighbours, can u off the lights n go to slp..' irritating.. suddenly all of us felt as if we were in a camp and being controlled by some ghost or something.. to think that all of us thought he was a nice guy.. tsk.. can u imagine he walking into our rooms when we were sleeping.. eeeee.... after turning off the lights, we emigrated to marni, xj, rina, and my room to contd our game.. we were trying hard to control our laughter.. ha.. we played till like 4 plus.. ha.. before we decided to get some slp.. ha.. tired..

day 4
we went back to the same place for breakfast, the waiter asked us same order as yesterdae.. ha.. wad a joke.. hee.. i ate the same thing as yesterdae... to tired to think.. hee.. we were at the meeting point for our bus at the allocated time.. but our bus was late.. so we took out ground sheet n sat on the ground to play tai dee.. ha.. i was the shit most of the time.. been a curse since jc days.. ha.. darn.. aniwae.. as the sun got hotter, we proceeded into the waiting place and contd playing.. ha.. nothing can stop us.. finally when our bus came, we trottled into it.. found our places and decided to rest.. finally.. haha.. but a full breakfast n slow turns down cameron was making me sick.. almost puke.. finally had a rest stop aroung noon.. n the 9 of us didnt knew it was a lunch stop until we realised the rest of the bus ppl didnt quite come back as fast as us from the toilet.. ha.. so we shared wadever snacks we had left.. haha.. den at KL, we picked up some ppl but we still didnt get to buy food.. there goes my hope for dunkin donuts.. haiz.. we finally got a stop at 5 plus for dinner.. the aunties in front reminded us to eat this time.. ha.. n we saw bixia who was also going back singapore fr perak.. ha.. wad coincidence.. hee.. got back quite early.. which was good..

notes
i'm missing my bunch of friends already.. it was like a class chalet.. so cool.. bonding was great.. hee.. it was an escape from me.. i suppose.. the urge always came to message back home but i couldnt bring myself to do it.. minli would kill me if i did it.. my ears would just drop off from listening to her nag at me.. haa... time just flies actually.. u r just kept busy.. dunno y.. could i say help.. to share wad u haf we somebody close is the greatest feeling one can have.. feeling?

melie
4:32 pm

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1 april - 4 april : cameron highlands
huifang, wan ting, jiemin, rina, marni, xiaojia, jiali, yuan sheng

6 april - 8 april: mt ophir (gunung ledang)
huifang, taion, jin hsien, wei khoon, jean, lynn, desmond, jeff, marcus, jim, xinghua, mavis, mavis' friend, ronnie, larry, hubert, ilas.

exciting.. tough.. fun.. torturous.. week.. hee.. oh well.. shall update on my holiday experience soon.. stay tune.. got up at 11am today feeling abit lost.. no more cool weather.. friends around.. no more looking after of one self.. it's back to my bed.. my winnie the pooh.. my home.. alone at home.. lie in bed for half an hr or so.. thinking of stuff.. thinking of my near death experience.. thinking of wad went thru my mind during those difficult times.. flashes of ur life.. the people you loved.. tears just rolled down unknowingly.. holding onto the phone and not knowing wad to type when u went to send a sms..

counted the bites i had which is not mosquito bites.. wonder wad r those.. counted the scratches i had... looked at the swollen wound that jean's teeth caused.. counted the bruises i had.. didnt moved abit cause it hurt too much.. it's like much easier to tip toe around..

felt like skipping lunch but the tot of getting gastric turned me off.. went to cook instant noodles and it reminded me of the time i had maggi mee in base camp..

wish u actually didnt matter but ur words were the ones that pushed me on.. though u nv said anything excouraging in the first place..

melie
4:54 pm

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