seriously speaking.. pleh.. annog eb emoh enola revo eht txen wef syad.. ssenilenol stes ni sa noos sa eht enalp dehcuot nwod.. yllaer nud annaw eb enola tub tey nud annaw eb fiw zuj yna ydob.. woh won.. eviecer ginkcohs wens nehw i was ym liam.. tnac i llet uoy lla taht si ni ym dnim.. m'i yrev das won.. hguot i zuj tog kcab morf kh dna i did yojne flesym ereht, i hsiw i dluoc klat ot mih won.. ton hcum doom ot klat won.. zuj annaw raeh sih eciov.. annaw kees torfmoc..esaelp..
melie
9:53 pm
在你后面跟随你的脚步
期待的是你转过身看我的那一刻
那就是幸福的感觉
牵着你的手
有种永不放开的感觉
其实期待能和你度过无数的未来
两年后的我
虽然已没有你在我身边
但幸福的感觉仍然存在着
melie
10:14 am
seriously dreaded today and actually this week.. it brought back memories..
in baoxian's terms, running away soon..
k.. no mood to type anymore.. got shouted at for nothing.. it sucks k.. oh well.. everything is probably my fault..
melie
7:06 pm
had been filling my weekends with stuff to do.. my mind is quite tired now.. but if i lie on the bed now.. i cant quite fall asleep.. am i suppose to get used to this..
let's see..
last fri (8-6-07) had saotsc farewell bbq at wanying's place.. well it was quite fun.. abi n i were the only non-exco ppl at the bbq.. the yr 3s stayed till quite late talking.. ha.. laughing.. after that huihui gave sarah, abi n me a lift back to the west.. hee..
group photo
sat (9-06-07) met up with diane jie jie in afternoon for shopping in town and dinner.. well.. we met up wif jiejie's bf and his fren after that to go geylang and eat durians.. my first time there!! ha.. well.. bought back dou jiang you tiao for my bro n mom after that.. they brought me to look around too.. in the car of course.. which was quite exciting as in to see so many ppl.. of all ages and race.. almost saw a transaction in action.. k i was the only one in the car exclaiming stuff.. well i was the youngest after all..
jie jie and me
see how small the durian can be..
on sun (10-9-07) met up with mrs tan, ms khoo, yanti, faiz n koony.. met them at sofra.. we talked from 4 till 8 plus.. ha.. just so happy to just chat with them.. we talked about many things.. inter-racial marriages, different type of marriage procedures, relationships, school, the current mds situation and stuff.. ha.. mrs tan sent me home after that.. manage to chat with her abit more..
fri (15-6-07) met yanwen and liying at cityhall.. sort of treated them to some jap food.. we talked quite abit.. finding out wad they had been doing.. for me is catching up with liying.. ha.. haven seen her in ages...
sat (16-6-07) went back to nj for a surprise party for the current mds president.. ha.. interesting.. it was then going home after that.. changed money for hong kong.. it was seriuosly scary to carry so much money alone.. ha..
sun (17-6-07) todae was pretty much lonely.. wandering arnd in a big shopping centre alone for some time.. got a map from diane jie jie.. then she gladly stayed to accompany me till the rest of my family comes out from watching movie.. k i'm pretty sad at wad my mom said.. had dinner at a jap restaurant in revenue house.. cool concept.. pretty full.. argh..
now i remembered why i had a nick that said " to be loved, to be wanted, to be hugged" before.. it wasnt cause of the relationship i had.. but cause of what i had been facing in my life then.. school, friends, family.. didnt quite go smoothly for me.. i was actually alone in certain points of my life except for that person who no matter what was always there for me.. seriously.. i didnt know who to turn to then.. i didnt want to actually load just that person with my whole lot of trouble but guess i did in the end.. i tried finding alternatives, i even considered helplines.. cause i felt guilty.. and he didnt haf time aniwae.. he had school, his life too.. life is becoming more of a struggle..
melie
10:08 pm
surprise is when
something least expected happens
surprise is when
your favourite teacher thinks about you
surprise is when
she writes you a card to cheer you up
surprise is when
she sends you flowers
surprise is when
she got a bear for you
surprise is when
you come home to find them waiting for you
surprise is when
the card wanna make you cry
surprise is when
these little gestures made you felt loved
thank you mrs tan..your little note really made my day.. your flowers brighten up the night.. your teddy bear will accompany through these times.. see you soon..
11:47 pm
he is becoming thinner..does he feel the pain?.. does drinking numb the pain?.. to know that he might leave this world anytime just brings tears to my eyes.. though you are suppose to prepare yourself for the worse, i know what it really happens.. no one is ever quite prepared.. cause humans always hope for the best.. they expect nothing to happen to them until it really does.. i have been through this process for 3 times at least.. to be prepared.. this is probably the hardest to accept cause somehow as u grow older, you are no longer naive and able to take things as it is.. the worse thing just links up..
you cry cause there's nothing you could do for him anymore.. except to let him enjoy the time he still has..
you jump when your parents call you while u're out cause it might bring bad news..
these are some things u think you are preparing yourself for.. but how prepared can you be..
somehow you are not suppose to know what you already know.. am i suppose to pretend?
melie
11:17 pm
somehow someone answered my prayers to not falling asleep in class.. that someone also gave me more than i could ask for.. not feeling sleepy when i'm suppose to sleep.. isnt it great now.. 1am and i can feel perfectly fine.. though i wake up at 7am everyday.. i can stay awake.. what's with my body now.. lie in bed and just stare and talk to nobody.. half an hour.. an hour.. going crazy..
fyp.. finally progressed.. yippee.. can start really writing the methodology for the proposal.. the late nites were all worth it.. yeah.. well.. no one to really share the joy with.. mayb winnie the pooh will.. oh well..
loneliness stays with you.. u could only hide your sorrows and fears.. 如果有一天..
melie
9:46 pm
cant fall asleep though it's late at nite
cant fall back to sleep though it's still early
how to lose all that energy
watch tv till it's really late
cry till you cant stop
talk to winnie till he's tired already
best thing is
you get tired when you're suppose to be awake
you wanna sleep when the sun shines
probably the nite scares you
happy memories brings tears instead of laughter
sad moments bottles up inside
when will the cork pop open again
you just keep silent till then..
melie
11:17 pm
did a collage with my birthday photos.. ha.. actually was testing how to upload pictures.. well.. think i got it..
melie
5:56 pm
did a collage with my birthday photos.. ha.. actually was testing how to upload pictures.. well.. think i got it..