he is becoming thinner..does he feel the pain?.. does drinking numb the pain?.. to know that he might leave this world anytime just brings tears to my eyes.. though you are suppose to prepare yourself for the worse, i know what it really happens.. no one is ever quite prepared.. cause humans always hope for the best.. they expect nothing to happen to them until it really does.. i have been through this process for 3 times at least.. to be prepared.. this is probably the hardest to accept cause somehow as u grow older, you are no longer naive and able to take things as it is.. the worse thing just links up..
you cry cause there's nothing you could do for him anymore.. except to let him enjoy the time he still has..
you jump when your parents call you while u're out cause it might bring bad news..
these are some things u think you are preparing yourself for.. but how prepared can you be..
somehow you are not suppose to know what you already know.. am i suppose to pretend?
melie
11:17 pm
