e s o p h o r i a - it's all about how you perceive me.

had been filling my weekends with stuff to do.. my mind is quite tired now.. but if i lie on the bed now.. i cant quite fall asleep.. am i suppose to get used to this..

let's see..

last fri (8-6-07) had saotsc farewell bbq at wanying's place.. well it was quite fun.. abi n i were the only non-exco ppl at the bbq.. the yr 3s stayed till quite late talking.. ha.. laughing.. after that huihui gave sarah, abi n me a lift back to the west.. hee..

group photo

sat (9-06-07) met up with diane jie jie in afternoon for shopping in town and dinner.. well.. we met up wif jiejie's bf and his fren after that to go geylang and eat durians.. my first time there!! ha.. well.. bought back dou jiang you tiao for my bro n mom after that.. they brought me to look around too.. in the car of course.. which was quite exciting as in to see so many ppl.. of all ages and race.. almost saw a transaction in action.. k i was the only one in the car exclaiming stuff.. well i was the youngest after all..

jie jie and me

see how small the durian can be..

on sun (10-9-07) met up with mrs tan, ms khoo, yanti, faiz n koony.. met them at sofra.. we talked from 4 till 8 plus.. ha.. just so happy to just chat with them.. we talked about many things.. inter-racial marriages, different type of marriage procedures, relationships, school, the current mds situation and stuff.. ha.. mrs tan sent me home after that.. manage to chat with her abit more..

fri (15-6-07) met yanwen and liying at cityhall.. sort of treated them to some jap food.. we talked quite abit.. finding out wad they had been doing.. for me is catching up with liying.. ha.. haven seen her in ages...

sat (16-6-07) went back to nj for a surprise party for the current mds president.. ha.. interesting.. it was then going home after that.. changed money for hong kong.. it was seriuosly scary to carry so much money alone.. ha..

sun (17-6-07) todae was pretty much lonely.. wandering arnd in a big shopping centre alone for some time.. got a map from diane jie jie.. then she gladly stayed to accompany me till the rest of my family comes out from watching movie.. k i'm pretty sad at wad my mom said.. had dinner at a jap restaurant in revenue house.. cool concept.. pretty full.. argh..

now i remembered why i had a nick that said " to be loved, to be wanted, to be hugged" before.. it wasnt cause of the relationship i had.. but cause of what i had been facing in my life then.. school, friends, family.. didnt quite go smoothly for me.. i was actually alone in certain points of my life except for that person who no matter what was always there for me.. seriously.. i didnt know who to turn to then.. i didnt want to actually load just that person with my whole lot of trouble but guess i did in the end.. i tried finding alternatives, i even considered helplines.. cause i felt guilty.. and he didnt haf time aniwae.. he had school, his life too.. life is becoming more of a struggle..

melie
10:08 pm

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