will update soon when i haf the time.. i should haf since year 3 sem 1 is over and i'm starting on my 8 weeks attachment tomorrow.. cant wait for my 4 weeks of holidays.. seriously looking at my final year project timeline-- i wont haf a holiday.. great..
things to update:
- hong kong trip
- exams
- studying observations
- attachment
been relatively busy.. so haven been updating.. the above is just for my reference so that i wont forget.. ha.. this weekend is a mad rush to relax.. sounds wrong.. aniwae.. i drag this attachment for some reasons.. its location, type of placement and everything.. shitty..
take the tears away, will you?
melie
9:29 am
People crave for attention
Hearing her tell him good night
Seeing her call him to check if you are ok
Knowing that she’ll fetch him from wherever he is
He chatting with her about his daily stuff
Desires: you just wish you had that too
And you were so close
She cuts up fruits for you
Urges you to eat more
Tells you to finish that up
Ask you if you are feeling better
Tell you to take care
Made you felt loved and cared for
Like never before
Funnily
It pains your heart to see her sick
You think of her no matter what
Even though you no longer see each other
When they cant face up to themselves, they choose to run away instead
Running away is just a vicious cycle
When they cant face up to themselves, they can do anything for themselves
Even hurting the ones they once loved or said they loved
How true is it
Why is that when you gave all that you could
Something like this happens
Thinking that if you gave your all
Share about yourself
He will finally open up to you
You waited
Gave him time
Didn’t want to push
Cause you knew you couldn’t push
It doesn’t quite pay to understand someone
He taught you to love again
But made you feel you are not worth loving
He showed you the care you desire
But it didn’t ever mean anything
Your eyes tells the truth
No matter how hard you try to hide
Smiling doesn’t cover up for the sadness
When he asked you to smile
You wanted to grant his wish
But it was difficult
Cause the pain you feel inside
Will cause you to cry when you smile
You wish he understood
You thought he did
He didn’t
You were trying hard not to cry in front of him
To smile for him would be a bonus
When everything else was overwhelming
He somehow made you felt calm
You wanted to smile then
But it didn’t came out right
You felt sorry he was miserable
And wanted to make things better
You wished you knew what to do
To make him smile too
You knew he was stress
You kept the crying to yourself
You were trying to make him smile
Cause that will make you smile too
He tells you
You could have said earlier
You could have told him
But he didn’t realize
There wasn’t a chance
He said you lost it
But the chance was just taken away
He was too busy
Too tired to listen
Seeing him this way
You didn’t know when to tell him
You felt lost cause you didn’t know what’s going on
You felt terrible cause you didn’t know why he’s upset
You felt guilty cause you couldn’t do anything except to wait till he opens up
Ironically
It ends when you ask him to open up
year 3 sem 1 will end next week.. it's a pretty short sem this year cause 2 months of attachment is coming up.. melissa is not strong.. she is tired and weak already.. she tried covering up but she cant hold on much longer.. she lacks intrinsic motivation to study for her exams.. argh.. bless her..
melie
1:24 pm
