if only the story is that simple
hey bixia, thanks for ur message.. i really hope to solve it but somehow, parents think by keeping stuff from their children, it wont affect their children that much. they think by solving it themselves or keeping to themselves, the family wouldnt change much.. i'm sorry to say.. it doesnt happen that way.. i find it very irresponsible of them to tell us not to worry and they will take care of things.. please.. if i wasnt blood related to you, maybe i wouldnt feel anything.. but having been a family for 21 years, i do feel the tension, the sadness.. as if i cant tell from your swollen red eyes that you cried, cant tell from your facial expression that you are sad and depress.. i hurt too k..
when u finally cannot take it, i haf to take on that responsibility.. do all 21 year olds feel this way too.. u say u want to hear the laughter back in the house.. seriously.. how do u expect everyone to behave like normal now.. and u blame the other for causing this mess.. what's the point of saying.. u r just making urself even sadder.. IT'S NOT GOING TO HELP IN ANYWAY.. i get piss easily now.. cause i see how everyone is giving in to you.. how long will it last.. it didnt wuite last from me cause i gave u a piece of my mind when i couldnt take it.. finding fault in little things u can find.. getting upset from all those things.. starting a quarrel just like that.. u call that trying to patch things together.. apart from doing all those stuff together.. seriously.. what is really going on..
i noe it hurts having to listen to what she said the other day, little brother.. i noe u fear when u haf to be alone with them.. just wanna tell you.. you will be loved.. i will always and try to be there for u.. i will only be gone for 1 year.. we still have each other.. at least.. i wont leave you behind even if we have to leave..
..tears flows down as my smile comes up..
melie
10:48 pm
