i wish i could say i am better.. but i think not.. i wish i could move out for a while.. but i cant leave my bro alone..
the drama has mellowed with my bro and i haf no idea wad's going on.. they are trying to solve this whole thing themselves.. but seriously.. i dunno wad's the result will be.. how much they say in front of my bro and i will be the truth? wad the hell went wrong?..
i dont dare to ask why though my curiosity is super high.. i'm scare to know the truth.. if you were here, wad would u haf told me..
i haven started crying.. think it haven really settled into me yet.. just like 6 months ago ba.. wonder how long i'll be able to hold before i break apart again..
i'm starting to hate 2007.. does it have to be like this throughout this year.. mayb it'll be a record that i cry at least twice a week for these 52 weeks.. mayb this is all to test my limit.. test when i'll just break down or succumb to all these.. how bad can life be, how bad?.. i can no longer run to you and hide under your covers..
melie
10:13 pm
