it hasnt ended..the whole drama episode.. to my disappointment.. well i knew it hasnt ended.. it just got abit secretive.. i might end up wif a dysfunctional family.. mayb it is already considered as one.. now i feel the responsibility to hold everyone together.. to keep their sanity.. will i keep mine.. some how.. are the 2 little ones only the ones thinking straight.. realise logic and sense doesnt quite come to anyone now.. seriously..
i dun wan to be the one deciding the future.. i dun want to be put at a spot.. i cant be there forever.. i cant decide for u.. u haf to decide yourself.. either decisions, i will still leave u one day.. i think she didnt quite realise that point.. unless she decided i shld stay by her forever.. mayb the nunnery would be a good choice..
to not think so much, i force myself to stay up at nite till i'm tired.. it doesnt matter if i'm tired in the day as long as i sleep throughout the nite.. the main principles are to not be caught in tears.. to be there for your brother .. and stay as strong as possible.. though the inner wall is no where near healed.. it just got wounded more.. day after day.. u know.. 祸不单行.. if not for my bro, i would haf chosen to stay away for a while..
my bagpack from hk broke le.. thanks to me.. it's 2 months old only.. well done melissa...
haven got an outfit for bgm.. sucks and it's this sat.. but i'm lo0king forward to camping out on fri nite.. tickets sales are not good.. sian..
melie
10:14 pm
