went for scholarship cum uni application briefing yesterdae.. submit my form le so waiting for confirmation.. the plan is to go sydney on 25 apr to find an apartment.. i'm excited to go.. but the situation i'm in, with my parents like that.. i'm kinda scare to hafta go alone with them.. most of my frenz would agree i cant perform under stress.. not sure why i have lots of thing on my mind.. if i hafta go with 2 ppl who are mad at each other.. i dunno how to function... i'm not talking to any of them now cause i'm angry at them.. just cant understand them.. i dun want to..
last nite.. saw my dad drinking alone before he went to bed.. the sight of it wasnt pleasant.. after that he sat in the dark in the living room.. doing soduku.. it was 1am and he hasnt gone to bed.. it was so hard for me to go to bed after that cause it really hurt alot..
went swimming after coming home from dental just now cause the sun was out and i didnt want to stay home alone.. just sat in the pool lazing around getting heated by the sun.. sigh.. back at home now..
melie
3:17 pm
