somehow i wonder what's going through your mind.. cause it's so hard to decipher.. so hard to tell.. you made me both angry and upset with myself within a few minutes over the phone.. just what is wrong.. it's so hard to explain anything to you when you believe in the way you do.. no matter what i say doesnt matter.. if i dun explain myself, i get blamed for everything. even if i explained, i get blamed too... so how do you expect me to live with you.. if you are not finding fault with me, then it is some one else.. are you happy making everybody upset in the house, making this home less and less warm... i'm like living in a hotel... home is just a place for sleep and probably that's all.. everyone is afraid to talk to you anymore..
you spoilt my day with yw yesterdae.. i was only out for the afternoon and you got pissed with me cause there isnt an apartment available in sydney.. there's nothing i can do at that point in time as i have told you but u insist it's cause i'm always out.. as if if i am home i can get the uni to produce the documents you need now.. hell no k... the admin person hasnt even gone back to sydney... shouting at you over the phone in vivo.. got me really mad at the point in time.. one part of me wanted to rush home, another didnt want to even go home.. as i was in the ladies, i almost cried.. i felt helpless.. sudden urge to run, to find myself in control of things again.. when i got home after dinner, i found myself unable to talk to you at all.. dad came to talk to me, but i could only gather the words of how come it's all my fault before the tears pour down my face.. dad says dun take it to heart but the damage is already done.. can i only pretend that something like this will pass or it had never happened.. i'm tired
gonna spend tmr with bro.. cant wait..
melie
10:10 pm
