i chance upon something i wish i hadnt.. maybe if i wasnt curious, i wouldnt have seen it.. life is always filled with times when you wish you didnt have to go through it again.. but life likes to play trick on you.. it just wouldnt let you off so easily.. the more you avoid it, the more it comes haunting you.. why? why does the feeling feel so real at times, like it never left me.. but i thought i very much left it alone for a long time.. the image wouldnt go away now.. leave me alone will you.. i'm not suppose to be thinking of it..
sometimes i thought i left that part of me behind, thought i was done with it, able to move on and lead life again.. but then, life just reminds me of all the memories i tried so hard to keep away from.. in this whole new life alone here in another environment, another place, everyday has been a test.. a test to move off from the memories, to lead another exciting life, to try many new things, to start planning a new chapter of life when i have to go back. the feeling is like running in an open field, with wind brushing pass you, hair flying with the wind.. and then you just fall on the grass and smile.. if life was only like that.. so many plans i have i wonder where to start.. get my own car, my own apartment, travel to many places, and keep my family together..
shots from floriade 21, canberra: pick the flowers u like most!
looks like pop corn!
melie
1:57 pm
looks like pop corn!
