on the last day of the year
what are you doing?
sleeping it off just like any day?
counting down with a bunch of people you don't know?
looking at fireworks?
having a quiet moment with your loved ones?
or alone watching the broadcast of the count down show on tv?
the mixed feelings
once so real
is back again
a new year
a new beginning
when to hold on
when to let go
when to run
listen
melie
6:56 am
as the year comes to an end, one just spend some quiet time alone reflecting on what has happened the past year and projecting on the future..
i am thankful for 2008.. after a rough year in 2007.. 2008 came as something i looked forward to.. as it was filled with lots of exciting things... somehow.. 2008 became a year where i did what i wanted, lead more of a life i wanted.. somehow after the 21 mark, i was given more choices, made more decisions.. in a way, i kind of didnt really care more, didnt think more.. but really.. my number one resolution was never to feel like 2007.. and i am glad.. i did most of it..
things that happened in 2008:
- FYP presentation
- graduation
- travelling: Taiwan, Thailand, Australia
- studying abroad; managing a home, life.. having great housemates..
- spent lots of holidays away from home: christmas, new year, birthdays..
- spent time with family and friends; found back friends..
and many more..
just feel so happy now.. life's getting better.. great isnt it.. half a yr more over here before studies come to an end and head back home.. lots more to look forward to.. all the travelling around here in aussie, to hawaii, maybe even further.. and then there'll be work.. get to see my family and friends again.. wedding to help out at.. maybe a whole new room.. lots of maybes..
though memories comes back to haunt me every now and then, i get through them no matter what.. glad i have friends to talk to.. thanks guys..
going to city for count down tmr.. something i planned to do ever since i knew i would study in sydney.. see the fireworks.. it suppose to coordinate with music on radio.. super exciting.. gonna camp out during the day to get a good spot.. will enter the new year 3 hrs faster than people back home..
melie
2:58 pm
merry christmas.. happy birthday pooh bear..
kor ask me wad's so merry about christmas.. i dunno how to answer him.. hope the exam stress goes away soon
think i'm tired.. feeling a little lifeless.. not enough slp and was abit stress about loading stuff online.. but it's christmas.. it was great to hear my family call last night.. heard my little cousin voice.. then my yec called during the weekend.. minli called last night too.. then xian sms.. yanwen's ppt slide.. bx's surprise gift.. uncle and aunt sent a gift.. all the little surprises during the week..
melie
7:11 pm
christmas dinner.. first time it's not bbq after the past few years.. this year... had it earlier.. on the 22nd.. before rina goes back spore.. we had antipasto, mushroom soup, roasted chicken and potatoes, fish baked rice and cheescakes.. not forgetting the wines.. had shiraz and a reisling.. yum yum.. for the antipasto, we had olives (just love them), sundried tomatoes and feta cheese.. yum.. lumpy made mushroom soup.. my fav.. rina directed us for roasted chicken and fish baked rice.. hehe.. nice nice nice.. we bought sara lee cheesecake from woolys.. the after dinner talk was nice.. didnt realise that time flew by so quickly also.. by the time we washed up it was already 11 plus close to 12.. then we went to play sparklers.. haha.. after buying it since national day.. it was great fun.. gonna post the video up soon..
melie
11:23 pm
christmas is fast approaching.. this year is probably the first time i spend this festive season away from home.. first time i didnt shop as much.. first time i didnt send as many cards.. first time missing my family chalet.. i never quite understood why i liked christmas.. never quite remembered how i actually celebrated.. except for the photos that i have.. no bbqs or unless food.. no cousins to play with.. it's me and my friends here in aussie land.. a dinner.. maybe post xmas shopping sale..
what does christmas mean to you?
melie
5:12 pm
life has yet again got me to ponder.. ponder on my plans for the future.. ponder on what i see myself as in years to come.. maybe ponder is not the word.. maybe it's change.. change of the plans for my future.. change in the ideal life i wanted..
life is like the train tracks.. when one has done the servicing, the train will run smoothly.. like life.. sometimes, things just falls into place.. and life events happens smoothly like how you plan them to be..
however, even though servicing is done, there may be a stone or rock out of place, or a screw out of the tracks.. this causes minor hiccups.. causing the train ride to be less than smooth.. a bump probably.. but it's ok.. the train still can run.. life still can go on.. a minor effect wouldnt hurt much..
but when this problem escalates, and is not noticed.. it becomes a major problem.. like a misalignment would result in the train being out of tracks.. an accident.. it causes serious damage.. one would wonder how do we deal with such a problem.. how can one deal with it?
time is suppose to help with the healing.. clearing the damage, repairing the tracks.. getting a new train.. time is suppose to do it all.. oh well.. for trains, it does really happens this way.. but in life.. does it always happen? maybe when one chooses to stay in the pile of wreckage, time doesnt change anything.. it makes life standstill.. the way one choose life to be.. the clearing, the repairing can be tough.. too much to handle at times.. there will be times when one wonder why we bother doing it.. we question ourselves on why we bother to do such a thing.. living life in a wreckage and gaining sympathy from whoever is around.. but then again.. isnt it better to pick oneself up and start afresh.. lots of tolerance.. lots of patience.. lots of believing is involved.. to just go through the whole process and recover, it may take hours, it may take years.. it's the first step that is really important..
how long will one take? who have the answer to that question? everyone is different.. i wish i had known the answer.. i wish i could see the future of my life.. i wish i knew what would happen.. wishes like these wont come true.. what will? wishing for things? i dont really want them or need them.. there are probably many things in life that we want.. why is it that the one thing we dont really want now keeps appearing.. the harder one tries to forget, the more one thinks of it.. please go away.. you are meant to be kept deep inside and never to be mentioned.. why.. go away will you.. the last thing i want is to go around in circles..
melie
4:50 pm
1. 离开我 by 袁惟任
3. 一颗心交给谁 by 品冠
4. Time After Time by 林凡
5. 秋天别来 by 侯湘婷
6. 说走就走 by 黎沸揮
7. 夜夜夜夜 by 齐秦
8. 记得 by 张惠妹
10. 你把我灌醉 by 黄大炜
11. 让每个人都心碎 by 黄大炜
12. 淋雨中 by 林宇中
13. 围墙 by 李玖哲
14. 你是我的唯一 by 巫啟賢
15. 心如刀割 by 张学友
16. The One You Love by Glenn Frey
17. 兄妹 by 陳奕迅 (canto version)
18. 第九夜 by 李玟
21. 两败俱伤 by 柯有伦
22. 背影 by 林宥嘉
24. 真实 by 张惠妹
25. 爱我 by 柯以敏 & 林志炫
26. 最熟悉的陌生人 by 萧亚轩
29. 爱来过 by SHE
32. 遇到 by 方雅贤
33. 靠近一點點 by Lara
34. 全世界的人都知道 in 惡作劇之吻
melie
10:17 am
i'm back from port macquarie... and i missed my time there when i got back to sydney yesterday.. life there was just so serene and calm and peaceful.. totally different.. the people there are so friendly and nice.. i just missed the place and the people i was with.. strangers smile and greet one another.. something i haven saw when i touched on this ground 5 months ago.. sad isnt it.. but i'm glad i felt the warmth and generosity of the people on this land during this trip.. it kind of change my impression of the people.. however i have to say this only applies to people out of the city.. definitely.. with the occasional friendly one here and there..
photos can be seen on facebook .. still in the process of uploading them but soon.. i have to say that this trip really made me see life in another view.. probably the enormous amount of time that i had for myself got me to reflect and saw life abit differently. if my mom ask me will i work in australia, i probably would say i would but in somewhere out of the country.. i wouldnt mind going back to port macq to work.. there was so much nature i saw there.. fields, trees, grasses, lakes, rivers, sea, kangaroos, cows, horses, birds, dogs and cats.. i really really like it.. the air was fresh.. and weather was nice.. though it rained abit too much for my liking.. i didnt get to go to the beach!!.. but it's alright.. i'll go back someday again.. hehe..
melie
3:16 pm
