i guess those who knows me well.. who reads my blog.. would understand why i blog.. and when i do blog, they would roughly know the type of stuff they would read.. i suppose so and hope so.. i did attempt to have a blog to just include bits and pieces of my life.. but it kinda failed cox i only blog during certain occasions.. oh well..
anyway.. i jus feel uneasy.. unable to calm myself.. upset about something that i dunno wat.. just feel like talking out but dun feel like talking.. feel like attaining a feeling when the wind blows against your face when you run, or when u stand at the top of a mountain and see the faraway land, or just burying my face in the pool and hold my breath for that few seconds..
my procrastination is back.. i know.. but i've got no motivation.. just feel so lethargic.. where's the drive i had.. feel like screaming into my pillow or maybe just cry abit tonight to get that unwanted feeling out.. kind of suffocating that i'm not sure what i want to do.. how..
melie
8:33 pm
it's another month.. coming to 3 months since i started working
how do i describe the life i had for the past 3 months
enjoyable fun learning
think i haven been this happy for a long time
not sure if it's cox of the environment and i choose to be this way
maybe i am
or maybe i am really feeling better
above all
i'm glad i smile more, laugh more
songs still remind me of the past
things still evoke those hidden memories
memories bring back emotions i avoid
but i am still happy
i can live with those emotions
melie
10:27 pm
